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avacadopopsicle

pathofthin

I want to be so thin people tell me I need to put on some weight.

I want to be so thin people talk about me behind my back.

I want to be so thin people stare.

I want to be so thin my friends all look bigger than me even if they are “normal” or “healthy”.

I want to be so thin my friends talk about it.

I want to be so thin my friends point it out.

I want to be the skinny friend.

I want to be so thin I can wear all my friends clothes but they’re too big.

Source: pathofthin

ruled-by-numbers

I think I have always been a fan of self destructive behavior
There comes a time when you are not afraid of anything anymore
And there’s only this rush of exhilaration at any chance of pain
For instance I’m slowly pushing away all the friends I have and it’s killing me but somewhere deep down I know I deserve it
For instance today I was crossing the road and this car was racing at me and I thought “for fucks sake mate just hit me”
But they slowed down and avoided me like I was a train wreck and they were mercy
I’ve been staying up till midnight and getting up at four in the morning
Living off of coffee and bad dreams that happen when I’m awake
My hands shake so much I can’t seem to write correctly anymore but that doesn’t matter because I haven’t been studying for tests anyway
I am painting my skin with red lines that look like accidents
I am leaving my hand on the burner for just a bit too long
I am walking in dark alleys at night when the moon is hidden behind clouds
I am doing all of these things
Hoping that one of them will kill me
Hoping that someone will stop me.

I am self destructing and no one is watching– Lily Rain (via wont-time-love-us)

Source: wont-time-love-us

paranoid-destroyer

skin-aandbones skin-aandbones

me: *weighs self*

me: not to be dramatic but i want to jump off a building

itslonebones

renewinglaurenjane renewinglaurenjane

Do me a favor okay?
Stop trying to go back to who you were before. Before you were raped, before you got sick before an eating disorder took over your life. stop trying to be who you were five, ten, twenty years ago. Before the mental illness took over, before he died, back before your parents split or you lost your best friend.

You are NOT the same person as before. You never will be again. Give up the idolization of “before” and be who you are now. Be the you AFTER.